so, i'm struggling with going out to the family's for christmas this year...  especially after all the rigamarole that has gone on lately.  however, if i do stay home, it's mostly because i'm being a jerk.  i really do need to suck it up and go...  even if it is horrible, and my mother ignores me.... 

on another note, a happier note, my daughter is the cutest thing in the entire world!!  the Christmas concert was held at our church last night, and my daughter was a present.  she had on one of those giant gift bags with the bottom cut out, and i put a tonne of ribbons in her hair.  she was a doll! 

all day yesterday, she kept asking me, "i just follow the Christmas trees, right momma?  the big kids look like christmas trees?"  she was supposed to parade around and up and down the aisles to this song that they were singing...  she did great.  at first, she tried to unwrap the present standing next to her, then she did a little dance to the music, then she got distracted by the nativity on the set and forgot to follow the Christmas trees for a minute!  she gave us a little wave every time she walked by us.  adorable.  i could have eaten her up!

that sure makes up for the crappy day we had with both her and her strong willed brother.  nasty children.  won't even let their mother have a much needed nap!! 

they sure are lucky that they're cute.  it's really their only saving grace!